Birthday

It's about 3 weeks until my birthday. Last year was a biggie for me so this year is somewhat anti-climatic. I spent the better part of last year reading and planning for a trip to Paris with my friends to celebrate the birthday.

No trip this year and no focus it seems. When I have bigger trips coming up I read and study about the location, getting around, pricing etc. I do better when I have a big focus like that to occupy idle hours.

My life is good don't get me wrong ... I am fortunate to have a job I enjoy (not always the people but most always the job), good casual friends close by, great friends in far away places, two nephews doing well and good health. I have much to be thankful for actually. But sometimes the inner beast rears it's ugly head and says "Aren't you missing something?"

To be satisfied with our station in life .... that is a hard task for us all. We tend to want what we don't have or to have things and not want them. Grace gets us through the tough days and prayers from family and friends prop us up when we are weary.

I need to be more thankful tomorrow. Today I am just a bit tired and sad. To say nothing of nearing another year older ... yikes.